I’m not going to pretend there’s anything easy about being a Momma, or a working Momma for that matter. What a crazy phrase that is, somehow implying stay at home Momma’s aren’t working, when, from observation, they can often be the ones working harder than us all. Anyway, back to the point, just like for countless millions of others out there it can seem never-ending and thankless sometimes. Over the years I have been able to watch and learn from the best of them, my own Momma who we now lovingly call Queenie in the family, Church and School Momma’s – all doing such a heroic job and the best they can. Then there’s the other side of the spectrum where you get to shudder and learn what not to do or how not to be around your kids by some of the worst abusive parenting demonstrations too. Relax men and Dad’s this is relevant for you too.
Let’s face it there’s no right “How to do it Manual” that comes with this parenting game we get thrust into as every child is so different and there is no one size fits all. There is, however, God’s wisdom we can apply every day, in every situation – custom-made for our every unique scenario. Weighing everything up I have proved this to be true…”Do not get tired and weary of doing good. At just the right time we shall reap a harvest of blessing if we do not grow weary, lose heart and give up. “Galatians 6:9
Out of the blue the other night the unexpected happened. Liella, my beautiful 8 year old daughter was sick, rapidly followed by me. Before going to bed I had zero intention of hanging my head over the toilet bowl at 3 am and in my heart singing that great song from Easter Sunday over and over again “The same power, that crushed the enemy, the same power lives in me”! Like it or not, in life, often the unexpected does happen, but even worse than being caught with your pants down is being caught with your faith on the floor. It didn’t look or feel like the “same power that crushed the enemy, lives in me” at that moment, but we don’t go by what we see and feel – we make faith our reality!
Just as my daughter, followed by me, made a recovery, Judah, our adorable 3 month old, became poorly. The look of shock on his face followed by hysterical crying as I grabbed him from beside me in the middle of the night to stop him choking, whilst he continued to vomit all over his Momma. We could’ve been swimming in the bed. Oh the joys of parenting. The endless laundry loads, bed changes, sleepless nights – but it’s true, no sympathy, I knew what I was signing up for by the 5th time round! 🙂
As ill as I had felt for the 2 days before; the raging temperature, the aching body and inability to even hold water down was nothing in comparison to the agonising pain of watching my baby suffer. I would do anything, go through it all again, if I could prevent him having to be poorly, weak and uncomfortable. He didn’t leave either his Daddy’s or my arms the whole time – we watched over him, prayed for him, cuddled and loved on him. He would lie whimpering and groaning in his sleep in our arms, other times he would be so lethargic and weak – then I’d up my prayer game, one time though he lashed out in pain and frustration, his hands flying everywhere, and hit his Momma in the face. In that moment the question hit me “How many times do we fly in the face of God?”
How often do we lash out at the One who made us and loves us more than His life itself (He proved it when He died for us)! I find it’s in the mundane moments of life that God often speaks to me. So many look for that euphoric encounter yet God is everywhere – He can make the mundane miraculous and just as the Bible promises, He draws honey out of the rock for us! A rock is a hard, tough place but stronger than any rock or tough place we face in life, Jesus is described as our solid rock that we can stand and rely on through all the storms of life. He is impenetrable. When we are weak, He is strong! As for the honey in the rock – well, don’t just look at that hard place your facing or that brick wall you’re hitting – look deeper and you will find through Jesus, honey to draw from bringing sweetness and strength, but hey, how did I get on to this, that’s a whole other revelatory message for another time!
Just like baby Judah, He was in a safe place to lash out at His Momma. What He couldn’t understand I understood. I saw His pain and the confusion on His face yet He acted as though I couldn’t see. I love Him unconditionally. It’s not dependent on what He does, but who He is – ‘mine’! That’s how God thinks of us. He is the author of love after all – God is love personified – is it any wonder we have mini encounters of this same expansive and explosive love. God wants you to know He get’s it, He’s got you, He understands, what you are going through isn’t hidden from Him. He will be your Healer when you’re sick, your strength when you’re weak, your rights when you’ve been wronged and your justice when you’ve been unjustly treated. Don’t run from Him, run to Him. Look what God said to His children many years ago – those same words are still echoing today over you and me:
Isaiah 40:27-31 NKJV
“Why do you say… “My way is hidden from the Lord, and my just claim is passed over by my God”? Have you not known? Have you not heard? The everlasting God, the LORD, The Creator of the ends of the earth, neither faints nor is weary. His understanding is unsearchable. He gives power to the weak, And to those who have no might He increases strength. Even the youths shall faint and be weary, and the young men shall utterly fall, but those who wait on the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings like eagles, they shall run and not be weary, they shall walk and not faint.”
Wow, just think on that for a moment. God’s understanding is unsearchable it says here. In last week’s blog, Betrayed with a Kiss, I spoke about the pain that can come with being misunderstood. God’s understanding is limitless – He wants you to know He understands you and He understands what you’ve been through and what you’re going through. What’s more, if you let Him, there’s nothing He desires more than to break through for you! He understands you when no-one else does and when you can’t even understand yourself. What you don’t understand He will make sense of for you, if only you will let Him! We are cautioned not to trust our own understanding that can be so incomplete, biased and ultimately leads to what hurts us and so many, namely misunderstanding, but to trust in the one who understands the whole picture. I love how the message version of the Bible words it:
“Trust God from the bottom of your heart; don’t try to figure out everything on your own. Listen for God’s voice in everything you do, everywhere you go; He’s the One who will keep you on track. Don’t assume that you know it all.’ Proverbs 3:5 Message
Don’t grow weary in doing what is right – believing God, trusting His promises for you, praising Him, drawing spiritual energy from reading His Word, the Bible – you will always reap the reward. Don’t grow weary in being faithful to what you’re committed to: your marriage and not just any kind of marriage – a great marriage, your family – a close, fun and loving family, authentic friendships, good success, personal growth and growing others, your Church if you are a Church goer. Do what you say you will do, regardless of whether you feel like doing it. Whatever you do, don’t grow weary of living a purposeful and fulfilling life that truly counts for eternity, not just the temporary. I believe in investing heavily into my relationship with God, family and friends – they, unlike the temporary material things we can all accumulate, will last forever. Don’t grow weary, I believe someone and maybe many, need to hear this today, don’t give up, don’t lose heart; keep going – your reaping hasn’t happened yet because your fruit, reward and investment is still growing – in the right time YOU WILL REAP, but in the meantime wait! I promise you it will be worth it. During the times you feel like a miracle in waiting, you are a miracle in the making! I love the meaning of the original Hebrew word for “wait’ used in this passage. It’s not waiting in the empty, futile, doing nothing sense but ‘wait’ as in a Maid lovingly and faithfully serving and waiting on her Master. In everything you do be faithful and if you feel unappreciated by people, whether your friends, family, work, then remind yourself who you are really serving – then look up and smile to Heaven and see your Heavenly Father smiling back at you.
After a sleepless night with Judah last night from 3 am, the endless screaming, the slap in the face, the sick all over me and the bed, what did I do? Only what any loving mother would do! I served and waited on my baby hand and foot. This afternoon I reaped my reward, caught on camera here, with a message for you:
This smile still has the power to make me cry with love and gratitude that melts my heart every time. God says to you beautiful friend, it’s time to smile again, try again, get up again and go again. This is not the time to be weary but to receive His strength – you’re going to need it for all the blessing, goodness and reward He has stored up for you to reap! Part two will follow next week but in the meantime I will be praying for you….
Father God, Whatever I face in life, may I not grow weary in doing what is right and good. Let me be successful and accomplished in all you call me to. I put my trust in you and not my own thoughts and understanding. Thank you that you know what is best for me and direct my decisions, leading me on the right path. Thank you for the blessing, goodness and reward you have stored up for me to reap in the days ahead as I live for you. In Jesus name. Amen.